In her podcast, Deep Dive with Vanessa Mdee, the 32- year old confessed how addicted she was to alcohol to an extent of not making firm decisions.
According to the celebrated Tanzanian artiste, alcohol had overtaken her life and she was living like a robot.
She was not able to recognize herself anymore because her life was just but the routine – anxiety, depression were the faces of her everyday life.
I BECAME A PERSON OF HORRIBLE CHOICES. I COULDN’T´T RECOGNIZE MYSELF ANYMORE BECAUSE I WOKE UP EVERY DAY TRYING TO JUST GET BY AND I DON´T WANT TO JUST GET BY ANYMORE.
MORE THAN EVER, I HAD MOMENTS OF ANXIETY AND MOMENTS OF DEPRESSION. I HAD MOMENTS OF.
I DON´T KNOW WHAT TO DO NEXT¨ BECAUSE THIS PRESSURE IS UNNATURAL FOR A HUMAN BEING. AND WHAT COMES AFTER THAT?
Like many other addicts Vanessa said she hid her addiction so well, she was living a lie.
‘ I HID IT SO WELL BUT I WAS DEPRESSED AND AN ALCOHOLIC.
THIS IS MY TRUTH AND ME LETTING YOU INTO THIS SPACE BECAUSE I DON´T WANT TO LIVE A CANDY-COATED LIFE ANYMORE.
I BECAME A ROBOT AND I HAVE NO DESIRE TO BE A ROBOT OR BE UNHAPPY ANYMORE, BECAUSE THAT´S WHAT I WAS, UNHAPPY.
HAD MOMENTS OF ¨WE ARE ENJOYING THIS¨, I HAD MOMENTS OF ¨THIS IS FUN¨, MOMENTS OF ¨THIS IS A BEAUTIFUL DAY¨.
Mdee has called it quits in the world of music, stating the industry is demonic.